Even though I am anonymous there is that fear that People can piece it together.
I think people have trouble connecting with me and I with others and perhaps this has something to do with it.
I think part of it is that I don't want to clarify my life goals. I was told that a grand vision of the future makes a person courageous and happier with life. It is just overwhelming.
Everytime I try it falls apart, one goal messes up another goal.
I have tried scientology, EST ( actually the forum ) and going to church to be around many people and to have a breakthrough in confidence levels but it never happened.
I wonder how people deal with safety issues.
I can only feel safe perhaps with journaling which does help and using a counselor or therapist but I could do that when the economy was not as bad as it is now.
So then my only choices were free programs like moodgym or clarifylife or ecouch etc etc.
I end up living in a cold world of my own creating.
I know that much and I want a change.
